Well first off, I apologize for being on vacation and not being able to blog. Sorry about that.
Well now I guess I'll start on my first really personal entry. Now I know nobody reads this blog and nobody cares about my personal problems, but I'm doing this anyway.
So there is this girl at school who was in my science class. The first time I saw her I almost at that moment fell in love with her. And then my teacher made us sit next to each other. And began to love her more. The day school ended, I told her that I was in love with her. She said that she wanted to be friends and said some other stuff that made me realize that she was a person who could actually see inside of me and who could see past the geekiness that envelopes me.
Well we e-mailed each other back and forth and I really don't know what happened but the next e-mail she sent me made it sound like she hated me. And I've been on my knees begging for forgiveness from her, but all she is giving me is hurt. But what makes it harder is that when I see her or think about her, I feel that she is the one. Yes, the one and that she is right. Right now, she is hurting me because I care about her and love me but she acts like she hates me. And for one moment, one small moment when we sat next to each other that she liked me too. But now I know that was probably just wishful thinking. All I want is her to just talk to me. So if your reading this please talk to me. And if anyone else is reading this, please try and help me, because I need it more than you think.
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